Finally!

Someone who isn't running around like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to convince me that plague, pestilence and locusts are imminent if I don't get the vaccine!

Well thats one way to vehemently object

I can guarantee he's not going to Iraq now.

i hate feeling unwanted

Scary stuff...

I'm hesitant to even say this because I know that there are people who read this that suffer from it but depression scares the hell out of me. Feeling like there is absolutely no light whatsoever at the end of the tunnel is something that I can only imagine because I am completely unfamiliar with it. I am an inherently cheerful person, more so than a lot of people, I can't understand the idea of being so sad that you have no hope of being happier other than your rational knowledge that this is not going to last forever.

Mutated vegetable also kinda scare me... But not as much.

Zhen

LOVE IT

these are from a Tea Party rally

This on the other hand makes me want to hurl.

for crying out loud!

Get over yourself! You stupid, emotional, oversensitive, prepubescent little boy! We all tried! We wanted to be there for you! You kept pushing us away or finding another girl to asfixiate or saying "you don't fit in with me and my friends"
BULL!

Everyone you listed there YOU pushed away. YOU toyed with them.
After awhile we have to just move on okay? That's what happens when you treat girls badly over and over again, we just have to break the cycle.
so don't you dare try and make yourself out to be the victim here, act your age and take responsibility for your own damn screw ups.

just personal stuff

I haven't been home for 13 hours! Blech!

I miss some people right now. Its hard when you decide you can't talk to someone because you know they're bad for you but you always just enjoy each other's company so much and... Yeah its difficult to let that go.

I am loving my Thursday nights group thing, its a bunch of graduated kids who get together to discuss world events from a Christian perspective and I love it. I'm learning so much and connecting really well to the people around me.

I love it when my guy friends say I'm like a little sister to them and that they are concerned for me because I don't have a big brother so these guys are the closest I'll ever get.

I wish I had more direction

My toes hurt.

Good friends are hard to find. Even harder to keep...


Sorry for the mellow navel gazing tonight guys, I'm feeling very contemplative.

Zhen

Word of the day

splunk

Now originally it was going to be spulumbo but that's not actually a word it just sounds funny so I decided on splunk.

Splunk is a monitoring and reporting tool for IT system administrators with search capabilities according to wikipedia. So there!

Z

word of the day

I think I want to start having a word of the day. But the problem is I can't guarantee I'll be on here everyday so it'll be more like a word-of-the-every-couple-days... Yeah that works.

Mmkay so Saturdays word is:

Baffling
its a really excellent word, makes you smile, makes you feel a bit better about being too stupid to understand whatever it is that's baffling you.and its got the fun-to-say factor =)

If you don't have ovaries don't even bother reading this. Seriously. You'll just be like "wtf?"

Mmkay so a few days ago I had a reeeeally long break at work so I went meandering around the mall and because I'm damgerously low on perfume I decided to check out the Sears beauty department for some smelly stuff to see if I find anything I like. So I go in and its really not that busy and I start looking around and Stacy comes over to say hi and see if I need any help and I told her what I was looking for but that I can't really buy anything I'm just looking around. Now like I said, there's practically no people around so she's bored and starts looking around and finding nice smelling perfumes for me to try and whatnot. (there isn't really a punchline or some hilarious comment to put at the end so of that's what you're waiting for you should leave. Now.) so we're looking at scents and she's handing me those little cards that you spray perfume on so you can still smell It later and all that. So when I do have to leave I take those smelly cards and throw them in my bag cuz try do smell rather nice =) and now I'm sitting here typing on my iPod which smells really excellent because it was in the same pocket as those smelly cards. So you know how your mother told you that when you buy perfume and you put itb on you should only be able to smell it on yourself for a few minutes before your olfacory receptors don't notice it anymore and if they do then its the wrong scent for you? Kay well my mom told me that only she didn't say olfactory receptors. well I am still noticing the scent so obviously its not right for me but I can't really ask my iPod if it still smells it so I may have just stumbled across the perfect perfume for my iPod and I'll never know it.

Yeah that's it. Pretty pointless post I know but what can I say? If you're still reading this and you didn't have ovaries before you started reading; you probably do now. Listen better next time loser.

Love Zhen

I <3 CBC radio

Prolific

You know its a good day when you can work prolific into a sentence.

Speaking of working words into sentences! I think my new goal in life is to be a tongue twister maker, here's my premier tongue twister:

Crazy Cruciverbalists Create Chaos by Constructing Confounding Crosswords Composed in Crayon.

I'm freaking brilliant.
And NONE of those words are made up! How proud is everyone of me?

Life's ducky =)

Zhen

I know you are but what am I?

You are the people you spend time with and the books you read...

Hmm. That one's difficult. Because I hang around with a lot of people who are very nice and very considerate of other people's needs but who have very different morals than I do. Now whether or not that is having a significant impact on my moral compass only time will tell. I know that I do want to be a nice, considerate person but at the expense of my integrity? Because a lot of the people I know who it seems do have their values in order can be quite insufferable to spend time with. maybe I need new friends who are fun to hang out with AND have good moral compasses...

I just realized how horribly judgemental I sound in this post, i do love my friends a great deal, but I worry sometimes that I made bad influencing friends. we'll see how this turns out.

Z

Ra is pleased :D

I think I'm finally over him :)
I read about him calling this other girl "his girl" and that he loves spending time together and I remember how that used to be me but now... I dunno. I'm happy for him, but not at all jealous. I'm glad that they're happy together but, at the same time I'm happy not being with him.

OKAY! Navel gazing, teenage hormoney moment done! ;)

Glorious Freedom

I've been able to drive my car solo for the past two days!!! I LOVE IT!!!

Disney = love

really and truly, I could not possibly explain to anyone how much I adore Disney movies. Old ones like Beauty and the Beast and Aladdin or new ones like Tinkerbell. Granted the new ones have slightly less original premises but they're still lovely.

I think out of the Disney princess ones my favourites are Beauty and the Beast and Aladdin because those girls actually fall in love with the princes. Cinderella and Snow White just marry their princes because they're Prince Charming. Which I must say is rather lame.

Although come to think of it, some of you may view my love for Disney movies rather lame. But thats your problem =p

Z

languages make me happy

So, working retail at its most basic form means you have to talk to the customers. Its not really optional. But sometimes (working in a more ethnically diverse mall) I get customers that speak Spanish or French, much to my delight! I love it when I can make people just a little bit more comfortable by speaking their language and understanding them when not a lot of other people they've dealt with that day can. It just makes me feel kinda fuzzy inside :)

Zhen

Finality

I received a letter from my chosen institute of post-secondary education accepting my request to delay studies for a year... So that means its final. I am definitely not going to school this year. Its a little terrifying.
Post-secondary, while terrifying in it's own right, provides a bit of a cushion for students. They're not technically in the "real world", they are still ensconced in academia and fairly secluded from the pressures of the rest of the world. I am not, by any means, downsizing the amount of stress and work that goes into University, I know its hard! But working for a year, or more, is a bit more terrifying in that there is no "next year" to retake a course. Its real life. If you don't get it right the first time you need to make your own second chances, you can't ask for a redo on the course. I am embarking on my life. Not making another detour to another school. Please; people who are in university who read this, do not be offended by my opinions. I am just stating my view, you probably have a completely different one.

Its scary.

Z

First time driving the new car

Oh dear god I had no idea one could stall a car that many times. I lost bloody count. I suck.

non-lethal ghosts

So today is the second day at work that I have come out of the stock room and put some clothes away only to realise that I have cut my hand and I have no earthly clue as to why. It didn`t hurt or anything, it just bled everywhere and customers generally have this weird thing about not wanting to buy clothes that have blood on them. Even if it is their own blood. I know I find it strange too :p

Work is going very well though, its nothing long term but I have been selling lots of clothes lately and my manager actually told me that I am one of her stronger sellers. :D I know it sounds inconsequential compared to, you know other stuff. But it makes me happy :)

Oh! I just remembered why non-lethal ghosts is the title :p
I've decided my stock room is haunted! By ghosts who just want to be noticed :) so they cut me with something just sharp enough to leave a mark but not quite sharp enough to do any real harm or to actually hurt, they just want attention!

Moral of the story? Be nice to your non-lethal stock ghosts or they might to decide to get your attention with a machete :)









ps I'm not usually quite this morbid...

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Lumberjacks

So I'm kinda sad to say that the first thing that popped into my head after reading that a lumberjack was stung to death by a swarm of hornets was the lumberjack song. I think I'm a bad person for this.

People who make me ill

Its articles like this that make me so unbelievably grateful that I live in Canada...

I would make a KILLING in the Asian film market

Asian men seem to have a disturbing affinity for me.
Don't ask me why.
They just do.

Good Morning Vietnam

me - isn't this a movie?

parent - what is "this"?

me - the Good Morning Vietnam soundtrack.

parent - its really funny! I think you would enjoy it.

me - the soundtrack or the movie?

parents - both.

*currently listening to the soundtrack*
Mmkay so I adore Robin Williams and pretty much everything he does (except for the Rock-esque lame-o Disney movies) so I REALLY want to watch Good Morning Vietnam now :)

my sarcasm radar is either broken or really paranoid...

mmkay so a friend from high school started this blog with his girlfriend and a friend of theirs and the really scary part is I can't figure out if they're serious or satirical... Its kinda freakin me out too because some of the stuff they say is marginally offensive... I'm lost.
I hope they are satirical though because I like my sarcasm metre and getting those things fixed is such a pain in the arse.

Look out Canada

There's a new terror on the road :)

Questionable Content

I've pretty much fallen in love with this online comic strip. Its awesome. The artwork is kinda dreadful at the beginning but trust me, it gets much better :)
I think I like it because its... like 2% smarter than most comic strips haha, maybe more than 2...


***DISCLAIMER***
I'd say its probably best if nobody related to me follows that link. Inappropriate humour abounds.

road test tomorrow... God help us all...

so I (and about 150-200 other people) are now pastorless. Its for the best but I've been part of a church looking for a pastor before and trust me, it is no fun at all. Hopefully I'll be able to maintain the friendships I've developed in the two merged churches but... We'll see.

I saw Julie and Julia this evening and really enjoyed it, course if you've seen the trailers you'll understand why I was seized by the overwhelming compulsion to blog =p i think I enjoyed the movie so much because everyone was so sincere. They were passionate be supremely believable, maybe thats because it was based on a true story and bot just fabricated out of somebody's head which can sometimes result in fairly ridiculous movies. I really respected Julie's ambition to really accomplish something though, she was aware that at that point in her life she was simply getting by. I wrote an essay about ambition the other day and in it I wrote that ambitious people are not necessarily driven to conquer the world but simply to strive for more than what is handed to them. Julie kind of does that, she set a goal and fulfilled it, not for any more gain than that of bettering herself and learning. I'd like to do something like that. Not exactly like that of course, I don't derrive nearly the same joy out of cooking as either ladies did.
We may see more about this later...

My birthday is coming up :) I am still undecided on the whole "birthday party" topic as of yet. I may do nothing at all or I may do something small.
I feel confident that this will be a year of much growing for me, even more so than the previous years I think because i am starting to figure out the kind of person I want to be later on in life, this should be interesting...

Musings.

The future is looking like a big, black, angry, turbulent, mauling abyss.
I'm not going to university. At least not this year.

Ubiquitous Mortality

So is it just me or are a whole lot of famous people dying lately?

good and bad

-
Lost my wallet
Got 68% final mark in french 30
Don't have enough money to take my car with me to university
Can't finish drivers ed without wallet which has license

+
Found second job
Turns out my manager may not despise me at first job
I'm going to university in the fall
I get clothes discounts
Playing soccer with friends tonight

Lots to think about tonight...

Life stuffs

Mmkay so tomorrow is my last exam (yay!!!) and then I am DONE high school.

I've been trying to find a second job lately, I already have one lined up for the summer but two would be optimal. I start at the one tomorrow :) just hostessing and bussing but hey, once I'm older I can waitress.

Things seem to be going alright lately... Parents are working and happy with that. I'm working and I hope I'll be happy with that. I get to sleep in most of the time :) My friends are doing pretty good although I really can't wait until I get my license and my parents let me drive to see them cuz they're too busy to drive me right now...

My room is almost set up, few more nails in the wall and I'll be all set...

Well this is getting kinda rambly so I guess I'll be done now... I'll write something more pithy later ;)

Zhen

Fancy cars = support for successor they have no choice but to support... o.O

Yeah... cuz thats not obvious... Kim Jong has always been synonymous with subtlety in my book.

Bullet fees?!?!?!

I can't even bring myself to make a snarky comment about this. Its just so horrible. Can you imagine being that dad? Or the fiancee of the dude? Blech... dictatorships BLOW. :( no me gusta.

RIP Jackson and Fawcett

I wasn't much for either of them but everyone deserves at least a little respect when they die.

FLYING CARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AWESOME!
I'm excited :)

We don't want her.

Stupid racist people wasting perfectly good air...
It doesn't reveal the ugly side of Republicanism, it reveals the truly heinous side of Sherri Goforth and the other jackasses who thought that email was funny.

We're screwed.

Raunchy Italian Dudes

What is with em eh?
I mean, its partly her fault for marrying him cuz he's a creep, but then there's the whole "I need to impress a good, respectable woman so she'll marry me and then I can do whatever the hell I want" syndrome that some politicians and other old dudes experience. Its disturbing...

Man, I think Raitt is the new Ruby Dhalla cuz seriously, this chick is NOT having a good week. Isotopes are sexy, I totally agree, but saying that to anyone other than like... a super understanding spouse or sister was a baaaaaad idea.
And another election?! Can't we just be confident in the Tories for another year or two? They're trying to deal with a recession, that isn't their fault, cut them some slack. Lets not throw another several hundred million dollars into a freaking election when we're trying to pull bailout money out of thin air. Honestly, shake your head around people, what does it sound like? eeeeemmmmppppttttyyyyy.

Zhen

I am DONE high school

Crazy stuff eh?
I've had this blog... pretty much since Grade 10 :)
It'll come with me to university of course :p
Soon the little "about me" blurb will read "Canadian university student" how weird is that?

Just in case you were considering this...

DO NOT under ANY circumstances (unless you're a workout buff) volunteer to work out with someone and their personal trainer when they've been doing this for a year and this is your first time. Otherwise you will not be able to walk the next dxay. I totally wish I was just whining this much for dramatic effect. I'm not. DON DO IT!

And yeah... I'm officially allergic to cats and dogs. My eyes swell, my nose gets stuffed, I cough, I cry, its ugly. If I ever want to spend time with pets not scaly or submerged in water or both, I have to take an anti-histamine, a decongestant and eye drops. All two hours in advance. Its just not worth it lol. Unless I go horseback riding :) cuz that would totally be awesome.

I'm feeling rather narcissistic today :)

Changed my template

Mostly cuz I felt like I was sitting inside a giant creamsicle while reading my blog and no one wants to do that so I did this out of respect for you dear imaginary readers :) I lawv you

Dun dun dun DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am DONE my french correspondance course!!! DONE DONE DONE DONE!!! Haha its making me very happy :) no more coming home dreading the french homework, no more never seeing G cuz I have to do french on our spare, no more skipping youth and church and free milkshakes for stupid french!
I have forsaken you francais, sorry m'love but I CANNOT put up with you any longer. Its Spanish and German from here on out... I'll miss you ;)

So yeah, phew I made it. I'm not dead. Rents aren't dead. Friends don't hate me (I hope!), all is well in the world.

Man... this new town I live in is very health conscious, there's lots of runners and bikers and walkers and all wearing workout wear. I feel very... un-health conscious :p
Well biking with R this summer will help :)

ANYWHO, guess what guys :) I'M DONE FRENCH!
haha WOOTADAGE
SO yeah...

Oh btw guys, Palin might be 2012 prez.... coolio....

I find the word "whoremonger" superiorly funny. Terrible concept, really funny word.

Its what all the cool kids are doin...

Well it seems everyone has been updating their blogs lately and who am I not to hop on the bandwagon?
I've been muchly consumed with French lately and I am pretty much swamped in it all day today and tomorrow much to my chagrin.
I cut my hair! It used to be halfway down my back and now its a cute little faux bob that goes only to my chin :) I'm not pretty anymore, just cute lol.
I've finished reading Mississippi Jack Being an Account of the Further Waterborne Adventures of Jacky Faber, Midshipman, Fine Lady, and the Lily of the West by L. A. Meyer. If you think it sounds ridiculous you'd not be far off but it is pretty much the most entertaining series I've ever read (save for HP and Unfortunate Events (though those do become dreadfully dreary...) and Twilight and some other books) (but these definitely rank high on the list!) (I've been doing so much french lately that when I typed "de" I knew it wasn't quite right but didn't necessarily see the problem with leaving it as-is... I'm becoming quite the little froggy)
I'm enjoying my new house however without the use of a larger mattress at my disposal I've been resigned to slumbering atop a floor bound little single mattress with no bed frame to speak of (thats the "pity her" cue) ;)

Apparently Cabinet Ministers don't do enough housekeeping, creepy old Italian men don't grow their trees quite high enough to be sheltered from paparazzi taking shots of their nethers and film stars' sadomasochistic tendencies turn out to be the death of them. Its a rather twisted world we live in eh?

Cheers all,
Zhen

Oh oh oh!!! Pick me!

I'll buy it!!! woohoo pick me!
Lol now where is that several billion dollars I had lying around...

*twilight zone soundtrack playing*

LOST anybody?

creeeeepy

I do hope they find the people though... its pretty scary for their loved ones... and for the lost people too I guess...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Really? REALLY?!?!
What did we do to deserve this?
Belinda Stronach may be returning to politics... Fabulous, chairing daddy's car company got boring?

Good grief

Okay children, either start acting your age or don't try grown up things you can't handle.

Moving and Grad and Stupid Fish

Soooooo I moved today!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Its awesome :) I've moved to this completely new neighbourhood and its pretty and my house it pretty and my room is friggin YELLOW. I'm not talkin like beige, I'm talking sunshine and daisies and lemon popsicles. Its not a bad colour, pretty cute actually, but its NOT gonna work with my decor so I'll be painting pretty soon :)

Aaaand I graduated :DDDDDD In a pretty dress and way to much make up (I think) and heels and with my best friend and it was great. I walked the stage in my super awesome robe (and no make up... surprisingly no cameras broke ;)) and then took pics with my family cuz I love them and then we went to the restaurant I used to work at woot! I saw my coworkers and they hugged me and didn't get mad when I got my own creamer from the back (sorry guys lol...) and it was AWESOME.
Then the banquet was Saturday and I got all gussied up with make up and hair and a dress and pashmina and heels and it was good. Food kinda sucked but there was tons of people so I took multiple photos with pretty much EVERYONE I knew haha. It was great...

Ok DUDE! My fish are retarded. Honestly. I think they have mental deficiencies. Either that or they hate me. Or they want to be Nemo. Cuz they just float in their tank and look dead until you move the tank and they're all "damn it! She totally screwed up my act!" and then they're all pissed off for awhile. Then they pretend they're dead again. My fish are screwed up...
Although, one of them is named Rosencrantz (Guildenstern was my second fish but he died a little while ago... fulfilling half the prophecy) so maybe he wants to join his buddy...
Dunno what's with my little sister's fish though. His name is Sammy. Maybe he's just f*cked up in the head. He has no excuse. My fish has an excuse :p

my mouse is freakin out all over the place on me... I think it has ADHD...

Fridays rock

Valentine's cards with grand ceremonial presentations and poetry (who knew the lanky cousin was such an awesome poet???), st. patrick's day lucky charms, april fool's day charades (how the heck is one supposed to act out a ballerina making a sandwich!?!?!?!?!?) and thanksgiving stuffing sling shots = AWESOME!
Then we played grounders on the huge school playground and played on the tire swings and all acted like four year olds again :)
Next stop, Dennys for pancakes!!! Avec strawberries and whipcream mmmmm....
And I totally almost beat lindsay in arm wrestling haha.
And last but not least, the first half of Interview with the Vampire at R's house where we all got scared of Kirsten Dunst as a psycho 13 year old vampire...

*sigh* I love youth...

We're finishing that movie! I wanna see the end!

Don't Kick the Kangaroo Pouch!

Childish antics and university OMFG moments and g$ettin a job and Mulroney isn't very nice

Um kay. You say how mature you've become... grow up and stop trying to jack a high school boy's high school girlfriend lol. That would show people your maturity. Not leading her on.

Well. I'm getting into the whole university thing now... its kinda scary. Not gonna lie. But I'll get through it, my parents will help and I'll get out of it debt free which is really nice :)
Plus I have my car *_* which makes me happy. So yeah... I was feeling kinda discouraged cuz yeah, university it expensive and difficult but I'll make it work and I'll have a job and babysitting opportunities and scholarships and all will be well :) look out world.

Mulroney needs to remove head from sphincter then speak. Honestly dude, party solidarity ring any bells? You're still a PC right, so act like one!

You're a Jerk

nuf said

wedding/packing/Dhalla

So the wedding was amazing :)
The bride and groom both looked great and they were so happy and it was cool...
Course it had to rain blech, but my dress dried and it didn't rain while the bride was outside lol so thats good.
I got the whole reception hall set up thanks to the wonderful relatives and some of the youth so that was good and its exactly what the bride wanted :)
We toasted and danced and blew bubbles and made them kiss and ate and drank and then danced some more. It was good.

Then I got to go home and pack unti 1:30am which really kinda sucked cuz I had to wake up early again the next morning and pack more! But on the bright side my room is pretty much packed so I don't have to worry about that anymore thank goodness.

Ruby Dhalla is having a HORRIBLE week dude. I would NOT want to be her right now. Nuff said.

Roller Skating!

Omg what a blast, I'm so glad I went! :)
I bailed on my knees like 3 times the first loop around the rink though cuz I was wearing actually roller skates (bad idea) so my knees are turning all sorts of funky colours today.
But S and R and A pulled me up and once I got roller blades it was like 10x better and I didn't fall at all :)
Yay for 70s roller skating (except actually blading :p) I'll bring G one of these days...

Woot-adageeeeeeeeee!

Oooookay so I'm pretty much done my term paper :D:D:D:D:D:D:D which means I might actually be able to chill out with my friends and go out and not completely neglect them! Cuz I love my friends hard as it is to believe.

I feel very smart about world war two stuff right now too, I'm a freaking WWII machine of Japanese info... awesome lol.

I have to go dress shopping with M soon for a dress for grad :D I'm so excited and also I get to be the head decorator person for the reception of my friend's wedding!!!! EEEEEEEck! I'm so excited :DDDDD

FML

I have SO MUCH FREAKING STUFF TO DO

-accepting university stuffs and working out course things
-applying for residence
-turning down the other universities
-pack my room
-find scholarship form and mail it in
-write term paper
-brainstorm for written response
-finish french lessons and mail them in
-go to way too many events and stuff this weekend
-find a prescription for Ritalin so I have enough energy to get all this stuff done
-choreograph a solo
-practice lyrical
-finish bronze cross
-take drivers course
-pass license test
-register my car
-shoot myself in the head
-pass out from exhaustion

Everything you ever needed to know...

Pull the bear but don't touch the duck!

The Office

I've pretty much fallen in love with it :)

the irony of being a theatre person is that I HATE any drama that doesn't take place onstage. Good lord people, pull yourselves together.

I've Rediscovered My Love Of Riverdance... Lame as that may be :/

This is so not going to end well... =P

OMG I can post from email!!!

House

Wilson - so its more of a theoretical capacity for error?

Heavens, House is my favourite...

Happy Easter Everyone!!!

mmm grapefruit lip balm >_<

I'm Broken.

Dimelo porque estas fuera de mi
Y al mismo tiempo estas muy dentro...

Yo no se porque. Yo no comprende. Yo espero que saber pero tu me estas empujando lejos.

le falto.

bride of chucky

Jest chilling :)
I got lots of French homework done today (yay me) and made virgin mousse (if you know me very well you'll know what that is =p) and went to J's birthday party (happy birthday!). It was a good day.

So you know what sucks? Fairweather friends. They really do. Don't get all excited, I'm not talking about you.
But yeah, I mean if you're going to be friends with someone, make the effort otherwise it really isn't worth it.

I'm so excited for my new church :) there's lots of new youth and tons of girls! Omg is there a ton of girls LOL. I hope the boys in our youth group don't go crazy and scare them away haha that would not be good. But youth is gonna be much more interesting now with all these new people...

Je voudrais les amis qui sont fidèle et réelle dans la nouvelle église. Ne voudrais pas les amis qu'ont deux (ou plus) visages.

Zhen

Ps the title was just me not wanting to disappoint you guys in my constant quest for wacky titles

I ruined your ENTIRE evening?

Really?
Wow. I'm impressed with myself... thats power right there baby.
I didn't know I was able to singlehandedly ruin an otherwise awesome evening by hanging out with some friends for like 2 hours lol.
I guess I just don't know my own strength... I'll have to work on that.
Sorry! ;)

Zhen

And your dress looks like a tube sock with aspirations.

Dilbert is my hero :)

You do an amazing angst-ridden-teenage-girl impression

its melt-down time! Break out the sporks we're having partially frozen ice cream guys :)

April 1sssssssssssssssssssssssst

Happy Birthday T!

Okay so I was all ready to blog:

"OMG guys I'm pregant so I'm turning this blog into a pregnancy themed one where I'll have baby counters and child-rearing tips.
Yay for premarital sex and teen pregnancy!"

Aaaaaaaaaaand then I realized that the only people who read this already know me personally and know that I'm not pregnant...

So April Fools!!!!!!!!!!

Zhen

ps I'm knocked up. no really.

Refrain! resist! Wafuse!

Okay so I'm resisting the temptation to talk about my personal life cuz A) nobody wants to read that stuff and B) having my whole life out for all the world to see is a little disturbing.
All's I'll say is the Batman marathon (wimpy marathon with only two movies) went really well. It was a lot of fun :) and I had some awesome people over.
Me and some friends are now planning a Harry Potter marathon (much more impressive) to do the day Half Blood Prince hits theatres but I think I'll invite less people for that one becuz people are whiny and I can only invite truly committed ones ;)

July 17th guys!!!!!!!!!! Not that I'm excited or anything :)

Zhen

Yoko Ono

You can be my yoko ono
You can follow me wherever I go
Be my, be my, be my yoko ono.

Gitmo trials

Okay so when it comes to really high level trials dealing with the government where, for safety and national security's sake they have to lie, you really cannot believe a whole lot of the stuff you read in newspapers because the news is really far down on the food chain. So you take everything here with a grain of salt.
I have a problem though, just with the last line:

Meanwhile, Vijay Padmanabhan, a former state department lawyer, said the creation of the Guantánamo Bay detention camp was "one of the worst over-reactions of the Bush administration".

Does he have ANY idea what middle eastern terrorists do to their POWs? Torture them, chop off their heads, desecrate the bodies, its not pretty.
The Bush government wasn't just being paranoid and throwing random joe's in gitmo, these are very bad people.

propriety

Gentleman - A well-mannered and considerate man with high standards of proper behavior.

Lady - exactly the same thing

There's a bunch of other definitions relating to coat of arms and independent wealth and whatnot.
But this is fairly simple, well-mannered, considerate, having high standards of proper behaviour.
Although, this does not really specify as to WHOM those traits need be applied; therefore one must act like this all the time in order to be considered a gentleman/lady. I guess therein lies the challenge.

Wow man, most people can't even keep who their having sex with quiet in the media let alone debilitating, potentially life threatening diseases. I'm impressed. Course now that she's not an MP and has no more political posturing to keep up; Stronach is going to be THE new breast cancer champion and goodness knows we don't have enough of those.
Please keep in mind, I am not completely insensitive to women (and the small percentage of men) who suffer from breast cancer; it sucks royally. But I am a strong opponent of feminism and thats what the breast cancer cause has turned into; you feel guilty for not donating/running/shopping/buying m&ms because then everybody's all like "*gasp* you hate women?!" and I just don't like that. There are lots of other cancers and diseases (like rheumatoid arthritis/disease which my grandfather has and I have a stronger emotional connection to) which do not recieve NEARLY as much attention as breast cancer merely because they are not championed by feminist celebrities like Oprah.
Case in point

tres heureux

Oi, my head is so full of french I think it may explode but I got the thing I needed to get done FINI!!! Woot :) So thats good.

OMG I'm having a Batman Begins/Dark Knight movie night! I've invited a ton of friends (or at least most of them are friends) although some people have other things but it will still be fun :D G is coming so he'll finally see my house.

I have decided to boycott the use of any text language: "lol" "rofl" "lmao" "brb" "ttyl" ALL OF IT. I find myself using those more than real words to communicate my emotions and that is sad in and of itself therefore: NO MORE! I am triumphing :)

See, and as wonderful as life saving birds are. I would still rather choke on cereal than have a bird in my house. Those buggers are LOUD and INCESSANT.

ARA vs the Aryan Guard

I can't really take sides cuz they both suck.
ARA is racist against whites and AG is racist towards... everyone else. Plus both of them try to hide their agendas and make themselves sound better than they really are.

Ack a-freaking-Lack!

Ugh. SOOOO many applications to fill out, asking me questions I don't know the answers to. And I could get all existential about that but I SO do NOT have the mental space. On the bright side; I'm applying for a summer internship that would basically pay really well and take me away the whole summer. Which would be AWESOME! Get away from my city for a bit, do some activismy type things, get away from the stupid people who's thoughts lives revolve solely around themselves. It would be nice. But I have to get accepted to said internship so back to slaving away at my antiquated typewriter ;) jk

Zhen

Mother Teresa

Kay so I was all excited cuz I thought that Mother Teresa and I had the same birthday buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut then I found something contradicting that and then I found Something kinda contradicting both lol

But she considered her birthday to be the 27th so I'll go with that :)

OMG! Guys! Did you know Mother Teresa and I had the same birthday?!

crazy wacky ice baby

Okay I've officially seen the weirdest/coolest/most annoying ice formations this year! I love you Canada <3 :)

Anywho, I guess you've decided not to forgive me. Which kinda sucks. A lot. But thats okay, we're not really that close anymore so its no longer the elephant in the room of every convo we have :p

Yet another thing for the conservative blogosphere to pounce on... Not me today though. I'm getting a little sick of it; when the majority of your blog posts become all about tearing down the opposition, you're only pulling them down to your level. Yes Liberals have stupid politics, yes some of them are stupid on their own and yes we all think they have the wrong ideology. But stop tearing them down and start promoting awesome stuff that the Tory's are doing. That will do much more good than just whining about the other side.

comedic timing

I would be an intensely sucky comedian. My timing is SO OFF.

I managed to screw it up again. Before we'd even patched up the last screw up. I am talented... And stupid. And rash. And impulsive. And WAY too quick to anger. And in need of a tongue leash so it can't get away from me like that again.
I'm sorry. 100x over.

Apology

You won't talk to me so I guess I'll put this here

I assumed that if a mass email was sent out to the whole church; the children of the person who sent the email would know about it.
I'm sorry you don't appreciate condolences after a loved one is lost; I'll try to remember that in future because I had no intention of causing you or your sister any pain. I only wished to offer support (which you apparently don't want) and love.
I hope you'll forgive me and I'm very sorry for your loss.

C

OMFG

As happy as I am that it is now not federally funded, wtf went down there? I DON'T GET IT. He's the freaking Obamessiah if he can do that. I don't even get it... I'm amazed lol.

UGH lame sauce move dude. Who the heck does that? TO HIS CANCER STRICKEN WIFE?! Ick.

Now that sounds scientific:It even worse than I thought!

Being cool :p

Stop always needing to have the last word and sayin stupid stuff like "I'm over it". Dude you're the only one who cares, stop trying to be so cool and you'll find a girl.

All that jazz....

The toxic levels of navel gazing I'm seeing on certain people's blogs is really quite sad. Honestly people: stop being so self-centred! Get off your pointlessly pontificating arses and do something. Anything!

Anarchy Gotta love it!

I wonder if the author realized just how ridiculous/ironic his title was...

Anti-Semitism apparently never goes out of style...

bad blush

Yuck. Obviously an unflattering photo lol but thats pretty scary.

I dunno much about her (McCain) yet but I'm interested now. Or more specifically, I'm interested in the Mother of all Conservatism cuz it looks cool and I might take a boo at McCain's daughter's blog although really? McCain Blogette? Gag me with a chain saw...

NOOOOOO HOWCE

So 10th new house here I come! :)
I'm actually really excited even though I'm moving even farther away from my school than I live now but I'm graduating this year so that won't be too too bad.
Its gorgeous! I cannot wait to move in! Plus we're going to own this house so I get to paint my room!
Everyone keep suggesting I paint it goth colours, in case you didn't know: I AM NOT A GOTH CHICK. Its nothing against them I just don't happen to be one and I do NOT want a boring depressing, black, room cuz thats BO-RING.

Anywho. Yeah. We're moving to this little hamlet like 4kms away from my city. Its like my city's Alaska lol. There in spirit just not geographically ;)

Anywho, I gotta go study before the bball game, talk to y'all later!

Movies I REALLY Want To See

Public Enemies

Revenge Of The Fallen

Gigantic

17again

Mutant Chronicles

Terminator Salvation

Half Blood Prince

EW

The depths of consumer driven retardedness knows NO bounds

Omphaloskepsis

Hands down Best Word EVER!!!

*warning*
You may sound like a pretentious snob using this word in mixed company and this blog cannot be held responsible for your subsequent lack of stupid friends.

Zhen

Yay for distress causing ;)

Poor guy

I'm sorry. I just have to smother a giggle everytime I see this cuz its a commonly referenced newspaper in the blogs I read. Can you imagine having the last name Huffington? You'd get the weirdest/best nicknames EVER

Best language ever

Somehow I doubt any other language could fully capture all the wonderful insults buddy serves up... Its just that good. This is what I aspire to.

Thanks Kate. You're warming my heart cockles.

Zhen

Tax-payer funded hate

My jaw actually dropped while reading this. I was just that appalled.

Feedback

The World Around Me and The Truth Project

No, we wouldn't just accept it if it said you had to kill yourself at 65 to go to Heaven. Its faith. We believe that what is written in the Bible is true. Why? because there is solid historical evidence (secular and religious) that backs it and its writers up. Jesus fulfilled hundreds
of prophecies made hundreds of years before He was born. So no, we don't just accept everything that says "Christian" or "God" or "Jesus" on it. There is evidence, it makes sense. And yeah, we do have clearly defined parameters of what is right and what is wrong. Cuz God put those rules in place to protect us and give us the best life possible. Of the things God says is wrong; nothing good comes from them; being jealous: nothing good; swearing: nothing good; stealing: nothing good; sex before marriage: nothing good. You don't believe me? There are
tons of resources and books by people smarter than you and me put together (we're smart people, thats a lot of IQ points :)) who write them not just based on faith, but on actual, undisputed facts.

I doubt you and J were the only ones who recognized the seemingly "close-mindedness" of the program. Other people are just like you; afraid of confrontation and still a little confused. They may have been thinking the same thing and just didn't want to say anything like you. I have struggled with the homosexual and abortion questions too; my parents worked with people who've been raped and had abortions or kept the kid and you get mixed results. Its not my place to judge them or yours. Its all up to God because He knows their heart and their choices.

I'm just trying to show you a different point of view. I've had a lot of those types of questions before too.
Please don't get offended, I'm not attacking you or getting mad and I really like reading your blog and getting to know you.

Zhen

Fml radio

I think I may have mentioned something to this effect before but I think I'm leaking cerebrospinal fluid through my nose. That stuffs important dude! You're screwed without it! Plus if you're leaking and you have meningitis; its HIGHLY contagious so you're screwin with everyone around you too. seriously, just wiki "cerebrospinal fluid" and scroll to the bottom. Its ALL meningitis.

Theres your daily FYI
have fun y'all!

Zhen

flip

are you on crack? No. You're not. Yet. I think you might be soon though. I love you, I hate that you've started on this path. And you! You're partially to blame.

You know. I liked you better when you were just apathetic and ignored me. Now you're actively antagonistic and rude. Your mother obviously forgot to teach you common civility when you were a child. Either that or you just weren't listening. As usual.

Its easy to distort these kinds of things but its scary nonetheless.

I semi-agree with him. Not to the extent that his character is in the movie but maybe to this extent...

Zhen

PS stop being so self-centred. Other people's lives don't revolve around making you happy and keeping your trust

If I paid taxes I would be much more outraged. Since I'm still too young to pay them; I'm not completely outraged. Peeved yes.

NDP Leader Jack Layton said any new funding requests from the CBC should be thoroughly analyzed.

"We certainly can't let the operation collapse. It's a very important operation for Canada and has been for 70 or 80 years now," Mr. Layton said. "For many communities, and across the country in many ways, it's an important service, so we've got to make sure that it's still there, and we'll have to look at any request that comes forward very carefully."

I used to like Jack Layton, he was like a fuzzy, harmless uncle. Why can't we let the operation collapse? Its not like there aren't other news outlets with the same programming. The channels they hold exclusively will be bought up the moment they collapse and then it just speads stuff out. Honestly, a television program going under doesn't even make my list of concerns in all this chaotic global stuff. Its just a box with pretty lights...

Zhen

price tags

*GASP* War is expensive?! NO! Wait what? War is also difficult to budget for on account of our not being able to read the minds of terrorists?! *eyes burning* Too much truth on one computer screen!!! Get it away!

Zhen

ps I'm feeling snarky

Twitter-challenged...

Okay so when you examine the Bloggess twiterrings they're just weird, random, nonsensical, entertaining things. Sandmonkey's are posted by a bunch of people with names I can't pronounce talking about egyption weirdiosities. Mine however are just silly. I need something better to twitter about...

I do not get nearly enough credit

pfft like I don't know who it is. I don't even have to read her blog its so painfully obvious.
You seem to think I couldn't read between the lines.
Now I'm gonna try hard not to take sides cuz I've known you longer but she lies a lot less than you do.
Btw, Stop Trying To Protect People. You only end up hurting yourself more. Wanna know how I know? I've watched you to it more times than I can count. I care a lot about you so I don't like seeing you get hurt.
Call me if you need to talk. Obviously its not going to go anywhere and you know I'm not going to hurt you.


Btw the way guys, it feels like my head is going to explode thats how busy I am. Too bad none of you care :p
oh well, thats why I'm the person people vent to rather than the other way around. Jk love you all

Xoxo
Zhen

Yay for the National Post

Finally! Someone who actually called the Quebequers (kers?) on their stupidity! I'm not much for the National Post but that is amazing!

Grad pics and grad and conferences and stuffs...

Got my grad pics :D some of 'em are kinda cute too (in my humble, completely unbiased opinion... :P)

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
I think I'm gonna go to grad... Cuz I can do the conference next year... But I can't do grad next year. Now I gotta figure out who to bring... Yikes lol. Plus I need to buy a camera, cuz seriously, if I'm passing up the conference this year, grad better be damn well documented :p

So yeeeah. Now I can finish lamenting and pro-conning and other stuffs.. Its decided.
I hate that you were right... ;)

I wanna go out tonight... but I can't lol. Maybe this weekend...

Scary.

Thats terrible... Even my rudimentary knoiwledge of the area/events points directly towards Taliban propaganda. The carcasses of those boys were paraded through the city just to rouse the people into getting angry at the Canadians. That is terrible...

A DISEASE?!?!?! How would you enjoy having your race called a disease??? My guess is you'd raise all hell in court and get someone jailed over aboriginal slurs. Honestly... grow up. As for the prosecution? I think there's a lot of people out these being brutally murdered or wronged who need court time, not some ignorant jerk flinging around racist epithets (not technically the right word but it was just too good an opportunity to pass up...).

Lol guess people are gettin started on their "credit card diets".

Omg already, you are part of this country cuz Britian beat France get over it. Stop making a fuss, the Plains of Abraham was a decisive battle in Canadian history, it should be owned by the government. Its bad enough you had to go and cancel the reenactment cuz the politicians are still sore losers. Just give it a rest...

well truth be told I miss you
and truth be told I'm lyin
when you see my face
hope it gives you hell

now twittering

I feel dirty...

Inglourious Basterds

Judging from the trailer I don't think I'd actually be able to stomach the movie. But omg does it look funny.

News!

I'm sorry. I don't care if she was pmsing up the yin yang. You do NOT beat up your gf. Walk it off buddy. This isn't even like a feminist thing either, cuz I don't like feminists, its a common decency thing. Honestly.

Oh that is low its smart but its looooooooow.

Holy cow man! He was poisoned?! By a former colleague?! Thats crazy man... that stuff only happens in movies or tv shows or something. (try saying the girlfriend's name 5x fast)

I think there's something in the water.

steam...

I need to vent... but I always go to you to vent. And you're... distant. Or at least not interested...
At least I'm controlling myself and not venting to you.

Kamikaze baby!

Lol I'm doing my social term paper on the Kamikaze pilots (akin to modern day suicide bombers) of WWII and the psychology present in Japanese culture that made this such an attractive option for many young, bright Japanese men. Should be funky...

Oh btw! This is my 300th post!!!! Lol I think we should have a party :) Just in honour of my three years of havoc reeking (except its actually wreacking but my way is defs better)

Pfft Harper doesn't have to share he won that spotlight fair and square.


Thats rough man. The Talibs are friggin scary.

BTW This has been my main source for the past 3 years on political/newsy stuff. Unless of course I jack it from another blog lol

AWESOME family day :):):):):)

So it started with baking lol. almost 50 friggin cupcakes for the party we had... man thats a lot of cupcakes. But they tasted good!

Then we went skating back in ma hood :p I used to live down in that area of town so I saw some old friends (holy delayed information batman... yeesh), saw my old house being reno-ed *tear*, and uh yeah... fell on my butt a coupla times ;) I'm the most graceful person i know.

Then Dad and I got milkshakes! From the bestest milkshake place EVER. And drove home listening to old newfie songs put to rock music... *shakes head* it sounds a lot weirder than it is lol.

Aaaaand then I had a whole wack of people over, family friends, church friends, youth friends, random friends lol. It was a lot of fun, my mom (cuz she rocks) cleaned the house and made a ton of food and yeah. it was great. And we played the Game of Life where J ended up with 5 kids (go figure eh?) and M married a man... (M is a man just for those outside the loop :P). And then Apples to Apples. Which was fun, not truly extraordinary but fun lol.

Anywho, my family day rocked! Better than yours did i bet :p haha.

Night all!
Zhen

Car

I just bought one!!! With my OWN money. And I'll be able to drive it all by myself, on my own insurance once I get my license!

I'm so FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

emotions overload

this is what is known as a thought dump =p

Holy future opportunities batman. I need to figure out what the heck I'm doing this summer. I want a degree. I want to join the army. I want to get married. I want a life I enjoy living without mondo regrets. I'm so friggin thankful that I didnt let you break my heart. I wish you and me were closer. I wish you didnt resent me. I want to travel. I want to learn more languages. I want somebody to tell me what the heck to do with my life. At least so I'd have something to rebel against or follow. I want to be tough and join the army. I don't want to become one of the those girls who walks around with a chip on her shoulder. I want God to help me with all this. I want to be closer with God. I don't want to be one of those people who just let's their life dictate them rather than them getting what they want and what God wants from it. I want to go to the conference. I want to go to grad. I want to do both. Flip... This is so typical. I'm only thinking about what I want cuz I'm so frggin narcissistic. I really wish I was just pmsing so I could pass this off as a hormone induced freak out. But I don't get PMS... So I can't.

Zhen

Ps I had a great Valentine's date :)

Wow

that was... interesting

You Are Such A Putz

happy valentine's day!!!

peace, love and grooviness y'all ;)

Zhen

P.S. Kiss or hug the people you love today, there's a good chance you don't do it enough.

crazy peeps

Scary dude. Just walk it off buddy.

wtf

I didn't even believe this when I read it. People are so friggin weird...

Love Americans, just love 'em :p. especially the agressively ignorant portion; oh yeah those are my freaking FAVOURITE. Just read a book people, thats the first step. Then try educating yourselves. There's another step... yeesh

timelines

so i read your thing. the dates match up to your moods lol. and the new years one. thats when you just blocked me off. i was kinda sitting there in the dark and i had no clue why. you're a roller coaster in the dark; no one knows where you're going or whether its gonna be up or down. its frustrating. trust me.

reading... which is so out of character for me ;)

So I've been reading Fifteen Days by Christie Blatchford. Its about the soldiers in Afghanistan in 2006. Its crazy man... if I ever had any doubts as to why we're in Afghanistan and what we're fighting: its been completely cleared up. The soldiers have nothing against the regular citizens of Afghanistan, they're there to fight the Taliban. But when they help out the villagers and then the next night they get attacked by the Taliban that the villagers obviously know are there; they get kinda frustrated lol.

Its not a feel good-warm-fuzzies kind of book by any means. Its honest and blunt and real though. You feel like you are there and it gives me a whole new passion for ripping anti-middle-eastern-conflict people a new one when they start not supporting the troops.

So anyways, don`t start a troops arguement with me anytime soon :p

Zhen

Everything You Want

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
WhyI don't know

Don't Wait Until You Feel Like It To Make The Move

21 random facts

1. i love rock climbing
2. i want to return to acting at some point in the future
3. i hate having my stomach touched
4. i love going to sleep to the sound of water running or the dryer turning
5. i try not to swear and i notice it immediately when others do not use foul language regularly
6. i am completely unable to hold a grudge against anyone for longer than a day or two. believe me, i`ve tried, it just doesn`t work
7. i enjoy shopping alone cuz i like trying on crazy outfits that i would never buy and i don`t have to feel self-conscious in front of someone i know
8. i still seriously consider joinging the armed forces someday
9. i can speak rudimentary spanish and a smidgen of french
10. i don`t listen to specific genres of music, i simply find stuff i enjoy listening to. i will never put down a band simply because of a label they have
11. i have more guy friends than i do girl friends
12. i want to adopt children not have biological ones
13. i have never been in love
14. i hate those silly little preteen kids that practically live at the mall because they have nothing better to do
15. i hardly ever wear skirts but i like them
16. i have never been assualted by a disgruntled pipe cleaner
17. i used to have two foster sisters and they have since been adopted by a loving couple
18. i have lived in 9 different houses, gone to 9 different schools and attended 7 different churches.
19. i am Danish and Scottish in descent
20. my grandparents are nudists. (honest to god, I could not possibly make this up, I've been to a nudist colony with them)
21. i want to die in some extravagant "oh my gosh thats morbid but so cool!" kinda way

dance and swimming

omfg, if i'm this sore right now like an hour after swimming, i'm not even gonna be able to move tomorrow.

dude I hate not talking to you. i hate it.

and baby when its love if it isn't rough it isn't fun

lol

ahaha and now she's mad. I'm sorry, I feel bad for you cuz you were mad at me not her but its just kinda funny.

Aaaaand I'm on spare. Again. And I've got almost all my homework done.
Two spares sounds like fun. It isn't. Its boring lol. But on the bright side I can get all my other homework done right? Thats cool...

Right.
Cuz you totally have a choice. I love the arrogance that is palpable even through cyberspace.

Finally

its all your drama baby

you read my stuff and got pissed. Thats your problem.

You First.

start practicing what you preach

Gee there's a threat

suck it up princess. When you post your life online, you can expect unsolicited advice.

Whoa nelly

Drah-ma! Dude you both need to chillax. You're broken up! Just stop talking to each for for like a month or something, don't talk to each other, don't talk about each other, don't read each other's blogs. Just leave each other alone. You obviously are still really emotionally involved and upset so let each other cool off before you try and be friends again. You need some closure time and you're not gonna get it because everytime you talk to each other, you rip the wound open. Let the wound heal before you irritate that area again. Its just common sense people.

HOMEEEEEE!

So I'm home now :)

We went to universal studios hollywood on our last day and the rides were pretty sweet but honestly, Disneyland was like 10x bigger. Me and my fam don't have tv so Universal was kinda lame cuz it was all about these shows we don't watch and stupid movies we didn't take the time to see. But it was still pretty cool, we rode the Jurassic Park ride :)

House of Mouse and Macy's and Dreams and Fireworks GALORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I'm in Los Angeles right now!!!! Its warm :) much warmer than Canada right now lol.
We've gone to Disneyland which is FLIPPING AWESOME. There's rides and crazy mascot dudes runnin around signing autographs and posing for pics (believe it or not, they're not just at Disneyland :p).
HEY! You know that friggin awesome castle that they show in all the disney movie commercials and stuff? ITS SMALL!!! Dude I know, I was very disappointed. It's like half the size it looks. But there's all these lands, there's tomorrowland and adventureland and frontierland and new orlean's and fantasyland and toontown (where mickey and minnie live :O)

Today we went shopping which was pretty fun, I bought a pair of honest to goodness Apple Bottom Jeans lol, like the ones in that Flo Rida song. They're pretty shmexy. And I hit Abercrombie and Fitch and Forever 21 for earrings and these awesome purple sunglasses. It was an eventful day.

We went there too! Its called the Crystal Cathedral. It was built by Rev. Robert H. Schuller. There's quite an extensive history of it, a good portion of which our tour guide dude named Ed told us and he's like this wecked awesome storyteller (seriously, he should be a narrator for something) so it was all super interesting.

I had a really bad dream the other night. It was right after I got back from LA and I was at this party with T and S and Stef and some other people but I don't remember them. And T was in this other room and S went into that room and came out and said that T had overdosed and died. And then it kinda changed scenes to me talking to my dad about how T died and I was crying and then I woke up actually crying. It was crazy, I don't think I've woken up crying from a dream since I was like 4... It freaked me out cuz I woke up and couldn't figure out if it actually happened or not.

So yeah, we're gonna spend tomorrow at Disneyland again for like 4 or 5 rides that we still really wanna take and there's some souvenir stuffs we want to get too.

Dude, we bought these New Orleans parasols for me and my lil sis and my grandmother and my great-grandmother (gigi). Its cool though cuz my gigi got one like 18 years ago when they came last time but it got damaged so we got her one and its like transcended 4 generations. Well I think its cool :p

So yeah... I miss my friends. I love going to theme park type places (although, where we're from in Canada we have LAME ASS theme parks) with them. I hope I'm able to go to a really good theme park sometime just with a huge group of friends. Its been a ton of fun w/my family though. We've got all our wacky inside jokes and cartoons we watched when I was younger and whatnot so its pretty awesome.

I bought a bikini. Its been YEARS since I wore one of those, and trying them on is nothing short of torture. Any person with reasonably sufficient self-esteem would be a blubbering mess if they managed to find any particularly bad fitting swim suits. But I found a nice blue one that actually looks kinda nice so I'm gonna keep it. Maybe try it out at the leisure centre :p

Well, I'm watching Die Hard (yippie kaiyay mo-fo!) and I wanna go to bed pretty quick.

Zhen

Slightly less bizarre but still interesting...

Don't doctors take an oath for this type of thing? I mean, yeah she's uncomfortable treating them but as a doctor, you have to treat anybody who needs help. Thats just what you do. I guess it would be easier to prosecute her if it was emergency medicine and she refused to treat the women. But this wasn't even medical, it was a "meet and greet" appointment... thoughts?

In other bizarre news....

Kanye West is obviously not very concerned with the controversy that name may stir. Plus he's a dork.

This is just weird on SO MANY levels. EW

Lol thats awesome. Pretty lame attempt though. If you're gonna assasinate the Queen, you make as well make it flashy and exciting. But honestly, who'd want to assasinate the Queen? She's not particularly powerful, she hasn't royally pissed off (no pun intended) anyone for oh say the past half-century. She's a nice lady. Don't try to kill the Queen peoples, go target some big mean dictator somewhere whom nobody will miss. yeesh...

Ahahahaha, The article itself isn't that awesome. I just like the title :)


Zhen

I Just Can't Keep From Falling...

Well I apologized. I don't think you care but I did my part. I guess I just wait it out...

GOING TO CALIFORNIA IN 16 HOURS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Zomg I'm so excited lol. *happy dance*

Did I tell you guys how flipping excited I am to be done exams? I probly did but just in case, I AM SO HAPPY TO BE DONE EXAMS!!! No more studying, no more worrying (except about my marks :/)

I'm going to miss you... it sounds lame but I will. While I'm gone and after, cuz I don't think it'll change while I'm gone lol.

So I've been thinking about tattoos again lately lol, and I found this pic
I LOVE this but its completely impractical. Expecially cuz thats a bad place to be getting dye injected lol. But also because I wouldn't be able to see it/enjoy it. So I'm thinking of getting one here
but probly not a butterfly.
I found this one too, completely impractical but very shmexy
isn't it awesome?

Zhen

Excerpt from "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris

God gives us singleness - a season of our lives unmatched in its boundless opportunities for growth, learning, and service - and we view it as a change to get bogged down in finding and keeping boyfriends and girlfriends.

Well I found that a rather unsettling perspective... He's right though.

Dude I swear, I have freaking localized arthritis in my right index finger... this is ridiculous. IT HURTS!

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
I Corinthians 13:6-8

I have always loved that verse. I can't even remember the first time I heard it, but I loved hearing it. It just filled me with content.

Zhen

YUS! I AM DONE!!!!!

Ladies and gentlemen *drum roll* I AM DONE FIRST SEMESTER! (cue the balloons and trumpets and applause and noise makers)

I should stop... but I don't want to...

So we have a new most-powerful-man-in-the-world. Funky.

Oh hey guess what! I know what my personality type is :p Extraverted (vs Intraverted), Feeling (vs Thinking), Percieving (vs Judging) and Intuitive (vs Sensing)
Lol its okay, I didn't understand the meanings/differences between them either but its hard to explain. I feel smarter now though :p

Lol I've been going out almost every night for the past two weeks, I feel like quite the social butterfly ;)

Potentially problematic but still kinda funny. I'd totally compare the NDP to communists in Cuba but not if I was in public office cuz thats stoooooooopid.

I'm honestly too freaking ADD right now to even think about this. But it looks good...

Zhen

ugh, first you like someone who doesn't like you back.
Then someone likes you and you don't like them back.
Can there never just be mutual liking or not liking?? That would make things so much easier LOL

Woot inaguration today!!! Awesome. Gobama LOL. I would've voted for McCain but hey, Obama deserves his day in the sun right now so good on ya buddy.

Wow! I thought stuff like this only happened in movies! Thats awesome, RCMPers rock lol

well... nothin else much excitin lol...

Zhen

Proven

Thank God You Finally Let It Go

you want me to believe you care? Prove it.

more virgins recieve the bad news

I almost died laughing when I read that.

Woot, went to diploma prep and bowling tonight. It was fun, lots of jerks there though, one from our group, another one just worked there. Whatevs, people will be stupid, its like a right lol.

I read something like that in my biology class where this guy was mining and there was an explosion and a piston blew clear through his head but he was up and talking and stuff right afterwards. Had some serious brain damage after though lol...

Are you guys seriously mentally deficient or something?!?! I DO NOT LIKE HIM
(ugh I hate how "high school" that sounded but people are so flipping immature...)

Anywho, I'm seriously considering not going to my grad banquet and instead going to YC and chilling with my friends that weekend because honestly, I have no desire to go to the banquet at all. I just don't. I'll walk the stage and all that but the social stuff I'm just not that into... I'm worried that I'll regret it though. I'm not sure anymore.

YESYESYESYESYESYESYES

Whoops sorry... channelling cult like tendencies... I'm freakin myself out!!!

So yeah... good movie. Vaguely disturbing *shudders* for reasons I can't even name without gagging. It was a lot of fun though, we totally annoyed everyone in the theatre cuz J and I were laughing so hard at the WAY wrong moments and M and I have decided to dress up for HP and the Half-Blood Prince!!!! WOOT. Its exciting...

Hey I'm sorry you couldn't come, aww shucks man I love you too! *gets choked up* lol couldn't resist ;p Maybe you'll make it next time.

And I've learned NEVER to go to a Denny's again... though if I'm forced to I will. I just won't order a milkshake... Omg I need new friends, these ones freak me out.

Well its late and I need sleep. Talk to y'all later!

Zhen

Movie again!

Okay so we are gonna try going to Yes Man again tonight, maybe this time we'll actually make it to the movie! That'd be fun...
Oh! And there's also girls coming! I know right, I was surprised too :p

Anywho, I'll tell y'all how the movie is lol

wtf

why do you even bother? the both of you.
one's just toying and the other... i dunno what his deal is

Doppelgangers and troglodytes and petulance and duckpins and petting

I hate it when you do that...

You make me feel like an idiot for saying what I think... I don't think you realize you do it though. Thats the worst part.

I gotta lay off of you for a little while... I need to figure out where I am.

And I take it all back. Everything I said.

You Weren't Told To

You just chose to listen :p

And I appreciate that.

What was supposed to be a movie...

turned out to be rather different lol

So originally me +4 guy friends (I know sad isn't it? I do have girl friends I promise!) were going to see a movie then I totally changed the theatre cuz Dad didn't want to drive to the far one so they all bend over backwards to accommodate me and then it turns out we can't even see the same movie cuz it started earlier. LAME.

So we went to play pool instead lol and I embarrassed myself cuz I suck at pool lol and then we chilled at BPs for awhile :) which is always fun.
WOOT I got to see my friends at the restaurant too! The one I used to work at, and my fav coworker was there so I got like 3 hugs from him which was nice.
Then T drives me home and just as we pull into the driveway I realise I left my purse at the restaurant... *shakes head* I'm such an idiot. So T drives me back there to grab it because he's aweomse <3 and then I get home like 20 minutes before curfew *score!*

So yeah... that was my rather tame evening... bet it was more fun that yours!

love
Zhen

California, youth events, exams, grad pics and the middle east

I'm going to California in 3 weeks! WOOT, I'm so excited! I'll be able to refresh my tan ;) and shop and go shopping and chill w/my family.

Youth last night was fun, I didn't even get home until 12:30 lol and we
watched Knocked Up (which was probly not the best youth group movie option) and ate food and fell asleep on the couch. It was good times.

YUCK, I've got exams coming up. I really don't wanna take them either :( I've got a lot riding on these so there's a good chance I may not be posting much in the foreseeable future.

I wanna order my grad pics soon! They make me happy... Its a little weird tho. I've only ever seen my mom and my aunt's grad pics and now I have my own... I'm way too young for this lol...

Okay so Israel and Palestine are bombing each other over Gaza again... this is lame. Haven't they figured it out yet? Israel doesn't die. Its weird and its unfortunate, but its the truth. Tried and tested.

ZOMG I HAVE GRAD PROOFS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And they're actually kinda pretty... *blushes*

*2nd update* and other random stuffs

Como dias wife's pastor?
So T wanted to say "how is your day?" and he came up with como dias which actually means "how days" and later that day a lady got on our bus and when we asked who she was A said she was the "wife's pastor". So "Como dias wife's pastor" became somewhat of an inside joke lol

Dude! Our bathrooms FILL with ants and other freaky insects at night so its like 1 am and I'm going to the bathroom and I go into the first one and get totally freaked out by all the ants and go into the second one and there's even more ants and one of them friggin BITES ME!!! So apparently the sound I let out cuz it bloody hurt sounded like a scream so Ray and mom come running and I'm like "chill out guys its just an ant bite" so I had to get a band-aid on my toe and mom's all "there's poisonous ants here so if it hurts or swells up you have to tell me!" and meanwhile I just don't use those bathrooms anymore at night lol... I still have the scab from the bite, its rather epic


So mine and daddy's fav movie right now is The Breakfast Club cuz its flipping hilarious and our fav line so far from it is "my home life is unsatisfying". It doesn't sound very funny but you just have to hear it said. Its definitely a classic movie...

I am workin the tan, everybody says I have a "summer glow" (Talia's words not mine lol) and
I gave G his key chain and he's actually using it now so that makes me happy :) and yeah. Its good times.

I have to go study for my french final now :( wish me luck!

*update* (or rather stuff i forgot to put in the first post)

So on like our 2nd last night there 15 of us went to play soccer with some people from the church in this weird synthetic field thingy. It was SOOO much fun! Cept my team kept winning so I played for all of like 2 really short games and that was for two hours straight. I was actually dripping sweat it was disgusting :p
But Antony came and that was cool and he gave me chocolate :D which is always nice.

And Claudia (one of the cooks) gave me her cross so I would remember her when I came back to Canada.

And I gave Pablo my funky aviator sunglasses because he really liked them and I figured he'd get more use out of them there than I would here in freaking ICE CITY. So I gave them to him the morning we left and we all said our goodbyes at the airport and then once we get in Jony is wandering around asking who's sunglasses they are. And I'm like "darn it Pablo!" so I grab 'em and Jony and I book it outside where everyone is in the bus and Pablo is the last one getting on so I holler at him and give him the glasses and he's all "thanks girl!" and he was so surprised cuz I don't think he knew they were gone. And he gave me another hug and Jony and I booked it back inside to the line up lol cuz it would suck if we had to go thru friggin US customs alone.

I bought souvenirs! Presents for my friends cuz I love them and a bracelet and two pairs of earrings and a little carved frog that I named Diego the 4th. Why the 4th you ask? Well Diego our driver has a son named Diego jr and Diego the 1st made Daisy a balloon camel that we named Diego the 3rd so my frog is Diego the 4th lol.

I went horseback riding while we were there! Big Maestro (the pastor is Little Maestro :p) brought two of his horses and his son (who is like 10) to our camp! A couple of us took turns riding the horses and I actually got mine to gallop a few times! It was SOOOO cool.
Big and Little Maestro both brought their wives and kids (little Maestro brought Antony) to play soccer with us and let me tell you, those 6 and 7 year olds were fast little buggers. I did manage to score a goal but it was painful and I was trying not to trip over them lol. Course they've grown up playing since like ever so they've had a bit more practice than me.

Home. Tired. Happy.

2nd plane home was delayed :( by like 2 hours so we just chilled in the airport, watching A and T try and play hacky sack while completely strung out on cold medicine.

I am so glad I went, it was such an amazing trip and I would go again without any hesitation. I learned so much and got to meet so many new people and saw so many awesome new things.
I got to know everyone on my team so much better, figured out how to make the tour bus comfy lol, and ate lots of gallo pinto (rice and beans).

So first day there we were all kinda out of it because we landed at 8 or 9 and then took an hour long bus from San Jose to Sarchi which is where we stayed in this camp called Campamento Jennie Sue (it was named after a nice old lady who founded it). We all promptly passed out on the bunks because we were really tired from the day of flying and spending a 6 hour layover in Dallas lol.
The next morning we had breakfast and met our cooks; Rosita, Guillermo and Claudia, our bus driver Diego, our translators Bernardo, Pablo, Daniella and Salomon and our team leader John. We went to Naranjo which is where our host church is and 8 of us worked on started construction on expanding the church building while the rest of the team did children's ministry inside. Lol my gloves got so soaked with gasoline from cleaning the steel beams that i got a chemical burn on my hands, it was awesome.
So for the first two days we did construction and children's ministry in Naranjo which was pretty awesome cuz the kids were great and we were learning the names of different animals in spanish so we could make them balloon animals lol.
The times and days get kind of fuzzy after this because we went to so many different places and there was not a set-in-stone schedule because our itinerary changed constantly. We went to quite a few different churches and did children's ministry which for me meant doing kid's worship (lots of actions and repitition lol) with Alfe to start off and then alternating between balloon tying and bracelet making. I met so many amazing children down there, they are just so happy and full of life despite their unimaginably poor circumstances. You can't possibly understand how these people live until you've seen it. We were mostly in fairly poor areas and all the homes/businesses are built with the cheapest, thinnest materials and look so fragile. Costa Rica isn't subject to very hostile weather though so its not as bad but everything is just so temporary.
The perspective of these people is so amazing, we gave them soccer balls and bracelets and simple toys and balloon animals but they were so grateful and they loved them. We were actually making a big difference in their lives and giving them hope even though it seemed so simple to us.
We worked with another church youth group in Naranjo to restore a park so we cleaned up all the garbage and glass and repainted the fence and whatnot then in the afternoon we invited some neighbourhood kids to come play at the park with us so we sang songs and played games and I played catch with this guy names Marco for about an hour :p it was a lot of fun.
On our day off we also went to the Cataratas and Volcano Irazu (or so I believe, I can't remember the name) and the Cataratas or waterfalls, are also a nature preserve. I got to hold butterflies and A nearly got his ear bit off by a toucan and Diego's son, Diego jr lol got to see the monkeys and poisonous snakes and frogs. It was really amazing.
As a present to us, the translators bought fireworks that we set off on New Years in the field by the camp after we went to the New Year's party at the church in Naranjo. That was SO much fun! We got there at 7:30 and the celebration went til after midnight. Alfe and Jony and Bernardo and Adam and Pablo and I all did worship for what seemed like hours lol and we did our skit that closely resembles this one. And Marco and Antony saw it and afterwards we saw a ton of fireworks in the town square! It was so cool.

HOLY CRAP ITS COLD HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna go back as soon as I can :(

So Antony gave me a mix tape and I love it! Its got these 3 spanish songs on it and they're so pretty to listen to... I miss him lol.

One of the nights (I can't remember which) Ray and I stayed up until about 3:15 just talking about stuff. It was really cool though because it was stuff that we had wanted to talk about for a long time but had kind of just ignored. It was a cool kind of "bonding" thing lol.

I got to spend more time with a friend of mine which was fun lol, we figured out how to make the bus comfy. But he's got other stuff going on, things will go back to normal.

I hope things don't go back to normal for me though, I really want to stay this close to God. I want to pray like I did on this trip, I want to sow the seeds of God and do great things for His kingdom.

I'm thinking of going back there for my gap year if possible... not sure yet tho. I'll figure it out...

Anywho, I'm home now, its friggin cold in Canada, and I have a TAN!!!! WOOO HOOO!!!